Thursday, November 14, 2013

Has it really been a year?!

I can hardly believe that it has been a year since I posted and yet, at the same time, it seems like even more time than that has passed. Life has been eventful and we have been busy living it. Let me see if I can catch you up on some of the events of the past year.

First, that clinical trial that I mentioned a year ago I ended up starting last December. It is an oral medication that is aimed at inhibiting blood vessel growth around tumors. It is not the most pleasant drug to take, but all in all, it isn't the worst drug I've been on either. Like any medication, it has side effects. Some, like headache and nausea, are typical, but some side effects are just wacky. This drug doesn't make my hair fall out (though it does seem to be thinning) but it does make my skin and hair lose all its pigment. Yes, that's right, my hair grows out completely without pigment. My hair is clear, but pretty much just looks white. Check out this picture of my eyelashes. One eye with mascara, one without.

Wacky, right?
So, I've been on this trial for nearly a year and while it has slowed my lung tumor growth, my doctor is looking ahead to something that may be of more benefit to me. More on that when I know more. But for now, I am doing tolerably well. I am feeling okay for the most part and can keep up with Kylynn reasonably well (that kid has a LOT of energy).

And speaking of my little Aria, you wouldn't believe the difference a year has made in her life. I keep looking back at this post and I find it staggering that it has only been a year and a half since she made her first communion and danced at her first feis. She has changed, and grown, and matured in so many ways. She is a fourth grader now! And more amazing than that is that this past August, Kylynn and I found ourselves starting down a road we (or at least, I) never thought we'd be on. In early August, for many reasons (some that I didn't even realize at the time), Eric and I made the decision to homeschool Kylynn. Actually, we made the decision that I would homeschool Kylynn. Never did I imagine myself as a homeschooler, but after the past few months, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I don't know if this a permanent change in our lives or if it is just for a year or two, but I honestly think it is something that both Kylynn and I needed. Now, we have our moments (sometimes days) where school at home is a challenge, but the benefits that we have seen in just this short amount of time make it worth it.
Things like this:

 And this:

become gym class. And we get to learn in place like this:
And spend time learning with Kylynn's cousins in Tennessee:

And Kylynn can learn here:
at Mayo Clinic, with me when I have to go for monthly check ups. Not having to leave her behind, I think, has helped both of us.
More on homeschooling as we go. It's an adventure and a learning experience for both of us.

And then there is Kylynn's dancing! WOW! In the year and a half since her first feis this kid has come a long way. She has danced her way through the beginner 1 and beginner 2 levels and is now making her mark on the novice level. Our Jiggity Jig danced her last feis in her green school dress last month and this month debuted her highly coveted, black school dress at a feis in Tennessee. And, as is evidenced by the picture, has added hard shoe dances to her repertoire. (Video to come... I hope)
In her black school dress!

 Couldn't be prouder of my Aria!

She has changed so much this past year and I sometimes wonder where my baby went just who this beautiful big kid is. But then Kylynn will stare in wide eyed wonder at a galloping horse, or sing as she moves about the house, or burst into spontaneous dancing just for the joy of doing so, and suddenly she is my little baby, who was so anxious to start living that she entered this world a month early, again. She's a good kid. It is so much fun watching her grow.

So there you have it, or at least a tiny sampling of it, my life these past twelve months. It has been busy. It has been stressful. It has been fun. And, even on the rainiest day, it is always an adventure!


Steve Finnell said...


Is it possible to seek God? Calvinists teach that none seek God. They believe God selects all who will be saved, making it an impossibility to seek HIM. Man-made doctrines are always contrary to Scripture. God's word is always, the last word.

Acts 15:15-17 With this the words of the Prophets agree, just as it is written, 16 After theses things I will return, And I will rebuild the tabernacle of David which has fallen, And I will restore it, 17 So that the rest of mankind may seek the Lord, And all the Gentiles who are called by My name,

Prophets of God agree that all mankind may seek the Lord; a sharp contrast to Calvinistic teaching.

Psalm 10:4 The wicked, in the haughtiness of his countenance, does not seek Him. All his thoughts are, "There is no God."

The wicked can seek God, however, they choose not to. Pride destroys the desire to seek God.

Acts 17:26-27 and He made from one man every nation of mankind to live on the face of the earth, having determined their appointed times and boundaries of their habitation, 27 that they seek God, if perhaps they might grope for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us;

Mankind is to seek God. He is there for whoever is willing to find Him.

Psalm 53:1-2 The fool has said in his heart, "There is no God.".....2 God has looked down from heaven upon the sons of men to see if there is anyone who understands, Who seeks God,

If God selects men to be saved against their will, He would not have to look down to see who seeks Him.

Proverbs 8:17 "I love those who love me; And those who diligently seek me will find me.

God says diligently seek Him. Calvinists proclaim that no man can seek God. Who do you believe?

2 Chronicles 19:3 But there is some good in you, for you have removed the Asheroth from the land and you have set your heart to seek God."

Men need to prepare their hearts to seek God.

Psalm 9:10 And those who know Your name will put their trust in You, For You, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You.

The writer of the Psalms says God will not forsake those who seek God. Those who preach, the John Calvin view of predestination, strongly disagree.

Matthew 6:33 But seek first His kingdom......

Jesus says seek God's kingdom. John Calvin says men cannot seek God.

Hebrews 11:6 ....for he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him.

God rewards those who seek Him.


(All Scripture quotes from:NEW AMERICAN STANDARD BIBLE)